Major Mental Health Update

So I've been either barely stable or deeply depressed--no in-between--for quite some time now. I'm no longer driven to do anything but work, eat and sleep. So I'm doing something risky to try to get out of this funk... Recently I was diagnosed with TRD: Treatment-Resistant Depression. It's basically what it sounds like; the Serotonin and Dopamine receptors in my brain has some sort of block toward any type of antidepressant help. There are only a handful of treatments for this type of depression; I've decided on a more risky solution this time around. Enter Spravato, aka esketamine. Yes, you read right; ketamine. Given whether or not my insurance will cover me doing so, once or twice a week I will be going into a medical office to have straight-up ketamine sprayed up my nose. I may pass out or hallucinate during the aftermath of approximately 2 hours after each dosage, so this is nearly a half a day to an all-day thing here. It will affect my work, my social life, and most importantly, my mental health treatment. If this drug works, I get my life back. Boom. Seriously, it's been that successful on the market. Are there some super scary risks involved? Oh yeah. But I WANT MY LIFE BACK. So I'm doing the thing. Thought you all ought to know. I will keep y'all updated.